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Getting in Touch With Your Feelings About Brokeback Mountain
DeeDee:
So glad I'm not alone in this lifeboat. I found myself driving to work and a song from one of the videos comes on and I'm done...lol
I fell in love with 2 fictional characters and for the life of me, I don't find that strange at all. Maybe because in my heart I know there are probably many Ennis' and Jacks out there.
I do agree with you on one thing, they will stay with me the rest of my life.
:)
hermitdave:
There are a lot of Ennises and Jacks out there. I am one of them. When I was younger I was like Jack, willing to sacrifice all for love. Then as I got older I became more and more afraid of life and uncomfortable with myself. Death of my best friend,self doubt,disallusionment, all together made me retreat and close myself off. When I saw this film I realized I have been in pain for years...and didnt even know it. I believe many people are in the same boat. I have read a lot of what people have written here and elsewhere the last few days,and am amazed at how many people off all ages persusions and circumstances are feeling what I feel. Its really a miracle-whats happened as a result of this film. I hope all involved with BBM are aware of what affect this film has had on so many. :'( :)
bbm_stitchbuffyfan:
Yeah, deedee and hopefulheart, both of you have really nice tags. They remind me of Brokeback. :)
When I first saw this movie in January, it haunted me for weeks. I didn't have a decent night's sleep for at least a week after I saw this movie. I cried over it every single day and was in a state of emotional hell.
The feelings came back again when I read the book and watched the movie for a second, third, fourth, and fifth time (though, the first viewing had the most extreme aftermath in terms of depressing me). I watched the movie for a sixth time last Friday and spent Saturday and Sunday moping about it. I was really downbeat those days and, like in January, had no motivation to do anything. Whenever I'm keeping busy or in public, I'm doing a decent job of hiding my pain but then these past two or three days I've had moments where I just cry, or want to and find I cannot. Sometimes when I want to just burst into tears, I cannot and then other times, I do. It's bizarre.
I'm still thinking about this movie all the time and I want to continue to do so. I love Jack and Ennis so very much and I don't ever want to let them go. This movie has changed me and my life in an incredible way and while there have been days where it is truly too much to handle, it is a miracle.
Currently, I'm still preoccupied with Brokeback and Brokeback only on the computer. It constantly resurfaces in my head. While I don't cry as much over it (I'm talking about after my last viewing, not during the viewing itself, and I do feel guilty about that, in some strange way), my hand-in-hand obsession and depression still seems to be here...
I hope this stays with me for the rest of my life. For a while the pain subsided (but then resurfaced when I watched this movie again) and I assume it will again, eventually, but everytime I watch the movie or read the book, I expect to be heartbroken again.
DeeDee:
--- Quote from: bbm_stitchbuffyfan on April 26, 2006, 05:40:51 pm ---Yeah, deedee and hopefulheart, both of you have really nice tags. They remind me of Brokeback. :)
When I first saw this movie in January, it haunted me for weeks. I didn't have a decent night's sleep for at least a week after I saw this movie. I cried over it every single day and was in a state of emotional hell.
The feelings came back again when I read the book and watched the movie for a second, third, fourth, and fifth time (though, the first viewing had the most extreme aftermath in terms of depressing me). I watched the movie for a sixth time last Friday and spent Saturday and Sunday moping about it. I was really downbeat those days and, like in January, had no motivation to do anything. Whenever I'm keeping busy or in public, I'm doing a decent job of hiding my pain but then these past two or three days I've had moments where I just cry, or want to and find I cannot. Sometimes when I want to just burst into tears, I cannot and then other times, I do. It's bizarre.
I'm still thinking about this movie all the time and I want to continue to do so. I love Jack and Ennis so very much and I don't ever want to let them go. This movie has changed me and my life in an incredible way and while there have been days where it is truly too much to handle, it is a miracle.
Currently, I'm still preoccupied with Brokeback and Brokeback only on the computer. It constantly resurfaces in my head. While I don't cry as much over it (I'm talking about after my last viewing, not during the viewing itself, and I do feel guilty about that, in some strange way), my hand-in-hand obsession and depression still seems to be here...
I hope this stays with me for the rest of my life. For a while the pain subsided (but then resurfaced when I watched this movie again) and I assume it will again, eventually, but everytime I watch the movie or read the book, I expect to be heartbroken again.
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You know, I don't want it to sound like I'm happy for your misery, but it's so much better knowing others feel the same way.
I thought I was freak after I saw it.. None of my friends feel half the way I do. I came to these boards after 3 weeks of obsessing by myself. They have been my salvation.
I, like yourself, cry a little less, but the emotions of the movie are stronger than ever. Half of me wishes these feelings would falter a little, but the other half wants to hang on forever.
ednbarby:
Texman, I just wanted to chime in on your story, too. My husband is an airline pilot and is ex-military. He did not shed a tear when his mother died - still hasn't, as far as I know. The only other time I've ever seen him cry was when the first German shepherd we had together years ago died. (He did not cry when our most beloved one died a few years ago, yet he still mentions how much he misses her from time to time.) ANYway, it took me a long time to convince him to see the movie on DVD with me. I'd seen it five times in the theater, and wanted him to watch it on DVD with me when I first got it. He said he wanted to see it eventually, but just "wasn't in the mood." He said this for about three weeks. I finally got him to watch it. He sat riveted through the whole thing - didn't get up once, which is extremely rare for him since he's pretty energetic and doesn't like to sit still for very long. When the scene came where Ennis went into Jack's bedroom, I looked over at him and tears were running down both sides of his face. He wasn't even trying to hide them. But I had a different reaction from your wife's - partly because I know that I am not the love of his life, nor is he mine. We both know that, we both accept it. Honestly, I was thrilled. I was thrilled that my best friend and lifelong partner *got* what I had been telling him about for so long. And I've felt closer to him than I ever did before ever since that night. We've been getting along better than ever, too. I never asked him why it made him cry - I think I know, so I see no reason to press it with him. I sat there weeping along with him and I'd seen it several times by then and he didn't ask me. Fair is fair.
Anyway, thanks for sharing such a personal story. It always makes my day when I hear about a new Brokeback fan. And I hope no one will take this the wrong way, but it makes my day that much more when the new fan is a straight man. I hope you'll stick around and continue to post your feelings about this extraordinary movie. I've found it's excellent therapy. :)
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