Phillip,
I'm sure we're all here for you.
Losing a parent just before the holiday season is rough. I know. My dad and I lost my mother very unexpectedly three weeks before Christmas 1995. So I've been there and done that!
But: You will get through it!
Jeff
You know, Jeff and others with similar stories, my father died when I was 14, in November, and it didn't occur to me til now that that would have been a hard holday for me. It must have been - I don't think I remember anything about it.
I have no words to offer that I know for sure will fit your situation, Phillip. But I know I have had some very happy holiday times since then. Some years I make a bigger deal out of the holidays than others. Whatever feels "right" for that year. And for sure, there is always at least one moment during any family gathering, that I sense the holes left by people no longer there.