I went thru several days of being angry, confused, lonely and just at a loss as to how to feel.
But I miss him. I miss talking with him everyday, miss the text messages, miss the pms, and I never even met the guy in real life. I told him to consider me a friend and stay in touch with me, but I know the person I thought I knew is gone.
Part of what went thru my head last week was trying to understand how he got to that point and could I ever wind up in similar dire straights. I suppose so, but I sure hope not.
Big brother, I am so there with you.
For those who don't know, I was one of the "circle" that Truman is talking about. When Scott and I started PMing each other here, I had no idea that this would be the end result.
I had a whole bunch of emotions going on when I got word that the situations Scott was presenting to us were not true. At first, I was completely shocked. How can someone say stuff like this? Then, I got angry. I'm not supposed to take personal calls at work. However, with what Scott was telling me, and the emotions that were coming through the phone, I felt he needed someone. So I would leave my cubicle, sometimes 20 minutes at a time, and take his calls. Now, I find out I risked being repremanded for nothing.
Sometimes I feel badly that he felt the need to do this. Why? What could be missing from his world that he needed to behave this way with his friends?
I also received a Valentine from Scott, that arrived after the truth came out. However, the calls and texts from him have come to a grinding hault. I'm not calling him, because it's possible he needs space right now.
I did send him a card back.