Aww Dagi, sweetheart. Now you stop being paranoid. I had read it, but when I was about to comment on it, it was gone again. Leaving me with that Twilight Zone feeling. (Gary trembles as he contemplates how he could have read a story that doesn't exist.)
Dagi, you need not worry, at all. This is remarkable work. So emotionally raw and true. And it just so happens to be very close to my view of Jack's and Ennis's sex life. Except with me it's Ennis that tends to take out his frustrations on Jack. When you have sex you let go, and if you're feeling tender and loving that's what comes out, but if you're conflicted then that's what's going to come out. And I think the boys are conflicted most of the time. You did a wonderful job demonstrating that.
Beatiful, powerful, sad stuff.
Gary
Thank you Gary, you are a sweetheart.
I know that I will never stop being paranoid. You just don´t know what it means to write a story and share it with native speakers, knowing it is clumsily written and that I should just shut up and stop doing things I am unable do the way I want to. But that story has been in my mind for a long time and wanted to be written, so I did it in order to get ridd of it. Needless to say that I spent another hour in bed wondering whether I should delete it again, before more people can read it. Okay, I know by now that I don´t have to fear the judgement of my family here, but what about everybody else who visits that site?
I tried to let the story end in a different way, but it didn´t work. It´s painful, but I can feel Jack´s frustration and anger, and I thought it was his turn to let it out, although I agree that it´s normally Ennis who does that.
Thanks for your comment, Gary!
Dagi