just to give a bit of a forward: I have been looking for my Brokeback Mountain Videos for over 6 mos
now. Not just the original version, I wanted to watch it in Jan. on my new blue ray dvd on my new wide
screen tv. Well they were gone from the movie drawer. I keep them in the same place all the time. And
more maddening, not only was the original gone, but the second one I bought. and never opened, so that
I could just keep it forever unopened. It was gone as well. Well I almost bought another one, but they
aren't so plentiful in the stores these days. I was about to look again on Amazon. When I was searching
in there for something my grandson wanted to watch. There they both were. LIKE MAGIC...
So tonight I watched it again. It is the very first time I watched it ever without crying. The last time
I watched it was right after Heath had died. A day or so. I had the utmost urge to see it with him in it
still alive, and beautiful. It was so hard to watch. I cried more than ever I think, from the desolation of
the loss of Jack, and then Ennis. It was awful.
I think that the powers that be. Somehow hid those videos, for my protection. Then when the time
came for me to see them now. There they were. I tell you the honest truth. That drawer isnt that
large.. And I looked through it at least a dozen times. Thinking that maybe they were there and I was
overlooking them. Or at one time I went thru each and every one of them to see if someone had taken the first one and put it in the wrong jacket. But no.........? I have no explanation for all of this. Except to
say maybe its the little people. Elves, or some such.? Very weird.. I could understand missing one of
them. But both is more than odd. I wonder what the odds are really?
