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Anyone want another sweet 'cry'?
BBMGrandma:
Hi there my dear friends...and our NEW friends.....
I'm sooo sorry to have been away for a while. It seems I had just KIND of gotten over my huge crying jags....about BrokeBack Mountain....and then KABOOM....I get hit with losing my dear sweet friend. Thanks to you....the forum is still going strong. I just have to get back into the 'swing' of things. It's going to take a while, though. For SOME reason...my thinking about BBM feels clouded....suddenly .I can't seem to absorb all that I'm reading in the posts. Don't get me wrong.....BBM will always be soooo alive in my heart. I'm listening to the sound track now. And of course Willie Nelson singing "He was a friend of mine" now has a double meaning for me.
I DO have something exciting to tell though. I was at the theater a few weeks ago...and I spotted this HUGE <6' X 4'> stand up poster of BBM.....the one with the quote from "Rolling Stone" across the bottom. It's GORGEOUS. I begged pathetically for it....and the manager FINALLY called me a few days ago....and told me I could have it!!! I have a four poster bed....and the poster fits perfectly behind the back headboard. And SO....each night when I crawl into bed....I have Ennis and Jack...watching my back.
Tomorrow I pick up my DVD....and my BrokeBack Mountain T-shirt. They gave them away if you donated to our local AIDS charity.
Much love to you all....and PLEASE....keep our corner going....until I'm completely back on track. I just need a little more time....to grieve.
Much Love....to EVERYONE....Nancy :-*
Kea:
Nancy.....
big hugs.....dont rush the grieving....just let it unfold...
wonderful about the poster....Hmmmmm......by the bed huh?? You sure you gonna get any sleep with those two sweet boys looking down at you?? I am sure they will take you to the sweetest dreams...
hugs
Kea
twistedude:
Annie Proulx wants
me to save my tears for the
living and the dead
Afer 15 years
of dry eyes, I cry a lot
for reality
iristarr:
Oh Nancy, my dear, so glad to see you back again on this site. I've been some remiss about my attendance here, but I don't have the reasons you have had, lady. Some hard times, so many tears . . . you've really been through it, but clearly you have come through it, at least some part, because you seem right on the road, as usual. I've sure been enjoying my DVD -- when I watch now it feels akin to a really good massage, or a perfectly prepared meal of my favorite foods, or really good sex -- something I can just bask in over and over.
I've got my sister visiting me this weekend, who has seen BBM once, thought it was "good, but very sad." I've been so hoping to share some of my feelings about it, and she has agreed she would like to see it again while she's up here, but she's afraid that I'll judge her for not responding as I think she should. So I'm having to withdraw my hopes and expectations that some intimacy might develop between us around this movie, and not take it as a personal rejection. And assure her I will not rant at her about it! So, still, you guys are the only ones I can share this stuff with, and you're all so precious to me. Love to all, Iris :-*
BBMGrandma:
Hello my Dear Friends...
OKAY.....I'm gonna keep this sweet and short. <well....maybe not TOOO sweet> I'm NOT sure what is going on in my life these days. All I DO know is that I'm being hit....again and again. NOW my nephew is in the hospital.....he has Crohn's disease and he's very ill. He's only 26....and such a sweetie. All I seem to arrive with....these days....is bad news. I'm reading ALL your posts though and loving you all!! I just don't seem to have anything intelligent or uplifting to say....I'm SORRY!! The good part is....is that I KNOW you all understand.
Brokeback has TRULY got me GOOD....still!!! I still turn it on....all cozy in my own spot in the world...and CRY my heart out. It feels good....it's helping me cry out all this sadness that has been hitting me. It's as though our 'boys' are giving me permission to cry...and mourn.
Have Ennis and Jack taken on a life of their own? I was talking to someone earlier about BBM....and I said something like...."oh Ennis...yeah...he's a very kind soul...." and realized that I ALWAYS speak of them as though they were neighbors next door....or whatever. As if THEY are alive and part of my life. There are times when I feel a little bit 'freaked out' about it...and other times....when it's sooo comforting to me. Go figure...huh? ::)
I read Kea's tribute to Everett at his service on Thursday. SO many people commented on how fitting and beautiful it is. Thank you KEA....so very much.
All of your words and thoughts....have been so very comforting. Thank you ALL so very much.
NOW....for the first time in my life....I'm pushing a deadline for my TAXES!! UGH
So I'm off to go finish!! I'm halfway done...whew!!!
Much LOVE to you all....my fellow Brokaholics.....
Nancy :-*
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