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I miss you on weekends
injest:
Phoenix, your mom is probably having a hard time with figuring out how to act....how to feel...
and you and Bill are as confusing to her as it is to you...think about it, if YOU don't know what is going on with your relationship, she probably is ten times more confused...
I wish I had more help for you...more words of wisdom...but don't get too upset with her...she is probably doing the best she can.
RebelWithASmile:
3/20 - Tuesday
Well, the day started out good. I was energetic, but when i get to school...Bill ruins it for me.
I swear he is so emotionless. It was so scary today. He is bipolar, and he was on Ritalin so he is sometimes like a zombie. Today it was the worst ever. I asked him if everything was okay, he said it was.
At Lunch I asked if 'i did anything wrong' and he said no, but i had this feeling. I might be getting paranoid, but he seemed to be happier talking to everyone else than he was talking to me. I didn't know what i did wrong...he just seemed so dead to me.
After school, he apologized for being so zombie-like. I just told him to go home and exercise as that helps me. I told him to drink some coffee or hot chocolate or hot tea, as they help too. I was staying after school for rehearsals, and i told him that my mom could give him a ride home if his sister didn't show up (she never did). But he said he wanted to walk home. He lives less than ten minutes from the school, but the walk would be exhausting (but not impossible).
He's smoking now...and he thinks that he was just going through a bipolar mood-swing...i really don't know. What did i do?
He got a lighter from our friend, Haley, and will give it back to her tomorrow. I gave him some pills at school for a headache (as he had one) and when i looked around for any teachers, he said 'just give them to me.' It was neither peaceful nor angry, it was just upsetting.
Then when he did leave to walk home... i was desecrated. It was horrible just to see him leave
He was so sad...i just couldn't help him.
When Happiness May Come
I caught you watching
The sunset,
Heaven washing
Over your frown
And I knew you were
Upset,
Shattered ice
Covered in snow
Please,
It's okay to let
It show
Everyone dies
A Little
Everyday
I hope it gets
Better
It couldn't get
Colder
I'm sorry you
Had to walk
Alone
I wish I could
Help you
Perhaps,
Hold you,
But this you
Must but can't
Do on your own
It will get better
Maybe not colder
I'm sorry you had
To cry
Alone
I wish I could
Help you
Perhaps,
Tell you,
You can't
Always be
Alone
I see the
Sadness in your eyes
The gray in my skies
But you just hold
It inside
A rose in
The road
That is much worth
Laying on a grave
To sleep,
Would not give
His heart away
Tragedy,
He would keep
RebelWithASmile:
"It will get better"
"I hope so"
................
Shakesthecoffecan:
Hey Bud,
There will be days like this, for you as well as for him. Let it be like water off a ducks back. The sum of all the days, good and bad, is what paints the picture of our lives.
In other words, don't let one day knock you for a loop, and if it is a prolonged thing, help him to get help with his problem.
Peace.
RebelWithASmile:
I love The Hours, what a good movie about gay people :D
great acting, and so dramatic, i love the character of Virginia Woolf. I feel so bad for Julianne Moore's character, and poor Meryl Streep.
I got a great lecture today by a family friend. I came out to her (i've known her for >10 years)
And every time one of her daughters came into the house, i came out to them, LMAO! It was hilarious.
She told me to let Bill go, as i could wind up dead, because Jackie isn't fooling, and that i can't really help. This friend has been through A LOT! She knows people very well, and feels sorry for Bill (i informed her.) Weird, I'm trying to heed everything she said but i felt so apathetic, as i have this entire break (Spring Break).
Bill found out about the letter we sent to his dad...
he was mad, but not so anymore. He finally called today, i was surprised, i thought he hated me.
We're going to see 300 Friday...
I need to read Mrs. Dalloway
To read list
Mrs. Dalloway
The Amityville Horror
Frankenstein
Hard Love (school research paper!)
LOTRs
I've been so bored lately, that i started back into Lord of the Rings :-\
I'm that bored.
I love the movies, of course, and i love the game, and i want to give the books another shot
I'm sorry, but i cannot read the books. They bore me too much, though i try and try and i might actually read them soon, i doubt I'll get through them all. It's such a wonderful journey. I watched all three movies lately, and i did a little research. I'm becoming a fanatic again :o
Any Lord of the Rings fans out there???
I love the movie Quills. It's so wonderful, and it reminds me of my short story (for which i need to send to you guys) ;)
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