Over the weekend I pondered a lot about my online life vs. my real life. The two are taxing me, but in some ways the online version has been a rewarding experience. Still I feel conflict growing.
It is not that I intentionally keep the two worlds separate, but perhaps I have fallen into that old mentality of comparmentalizing things so that they do not touch. Controlling information about myself, while also being an exhibitionist. Man my mind it a strange place.
I think I need to see that the two separate worlds are that way logistically. Same as your work life and your home life can be two different worlds. Let there be enough energy to sustain the effort effectively, it all I ask.
Truman, I am glad someone else has pondered this online life vs. real life thing besides me. The two seem to be at conflict many times and it seems to be worse if the two somehow get intertwined or blurry. For example, my trip to San Francisco was great. I don't regret it. I am glad I went. But, it was one of those times where the distinction was blurred and the blurring caused issues on both sides. These issues affected my perceptions and ended up causing problems in the online world because of the real world and vice versa. That's not even to mention the problems caused by one online world becoming a real world for awhile and causing issues with the other online world. And then there are the issues caused by the real world of work, the real world of school and the online worlds where I might sometimes rather be. So, in writing this, I am discovering how truly confused I really am. So if this all sounds confusing it is because it is. I have made mistakes in all of the worlds so maybe that means I am completely overtaxed. Maybe I have way too many lives going on.