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It's back.... with a vengeance.
DeeDee:
First of all, you have nothing to apologize for. I can't speak for others, but sharing your feelings is not offensive in any way.
I think we all felt at one time in our lives, like you do.
So if you want to rant or cry or scream, I'll be an ear you can have.
Lots of love! :-*
Daniel:
--- Quote from: monimm18 on April 13, 2006, 12:41:14 am ---Jesus, Daniel, reading your post, the way you wrote it, I could fall in love with him too, just from empathising.
Do you think that staying away from anything Jake Gyllenhaal for a while would help? Or is it an impossible thing to do?
I always thought talking is great therapy, so share away, hon. We're listening.
I so wish I could give you a real hug...
Moni
--- End quote ---
I'm not sure. I've tried that. Invariably some part of my mind recreates him: i.e. dream/nightmare.
In some ways, when I go out of my way to find some film in which he has performed, I feel as though I am feeding my soul, but some part of my mind also wonders if I am actually feeding the obsession. Yes, I rented Jarhead and Proof both in order to experience some type of closer communion with the shadows of a person projected upon a screen. Which is also rediculous, but I did it for that reason, nonetheless.
Proof was a mistake. I should have avoided it completely. There is a scene there, well I'm sure those of you who know this film know the scene I am talking about, that broke my being when I first experienced it. Well, I'm not entirely certain that it was a mistake, I remember enjoying the film overall, but that one particular scene when his voice becomes divinely imbued with angelic qualities and he provokes inner desire and stokes an inner fire. Then I wondered if it was the words he had spoken, which weren't his after all, but those of some screenwriter/playwright. I decided it was a combination. The words were beautiful, but would they have been less beautiful if it had been some other actor performing them? I can't tell. I don't know.
Do I love him because he's beautiful,
Or is he beautiful because I love him....?
Bubbling insanity.
Mystic madness in the night.
vkm91941:
Your poetry is another outlet for expressing these feelings. You've created some beautiful poems and you should post them on the Better Most Fan Fiction board. So more people can see and enjoy them. The feedback on your words can be very healing. There is an other poet posting there as well...here's a clickable link, but it's easy to find on the main forums page
http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php?board=13.0
Daniel:
Good advice, Vicky. Thanks
I also hope that no one minds if I go completely crazy on this board. I may need to do word associations, freeform writing (I can already see where that will be helpful), imagery explorations, and other explorations of psychological and philosophical substances. I certainly hope that no one minds, and will feel free to reply to them. I may say something in one of these rambling instances which will shed light on the situation, and I certainly need as much light as I can find in the maze of darkness. Now if I could only figure out the destination.
Sheyne:
Nope, let me be the first to say I don't mind. We're all here cause we love this film and that includes everything in it, except Randy Quaid, who's proven himself to be a bit of a prat, but I'll still forgive him. :P
I know what its like to be obsessed with somebody. I have an obsessive personality which - over time, I have learnt to control, somewhat. Mind you, it all went out the window with BBM - I'm in over my head and I love it. (dangerous, no?) And I wouldn't hold it against you to be obsessed with Jake G. Every spare minute of my day is filled with fantasies and grotty thoughts.
We're here to help / listen / send you hugs & kisses. Just don't go to too-dark-a-place on us, Daniel, ok? Talk to us before you let yourself sink..
*hugs again*
sheyne.
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