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Turning a corner
BBMGrandma:
Hi My friends....
I don't want to drag anyone down....but I need to share this with you...my friends.
I JUST got home from San Francisco. My DEAREST most loving friend in the WORLD...is very VERY ill and in the hospital. :'( We've been best pals for over 35 years. Spent all day with him...and they STILL haven't figured out what is wrong. He's 6'2" and is down to 112 lbs. He's been losing weight STEADILY for the last 1-1/2 years but absolutely REFUSED to go to see a doctor. Ayway....that's neither here nor there...at this point. They're testing him for Cancer...Tuberculosis....HIV....and anything else they can think of. His lymph nodes are ALL swollen...he's running a fever of 102.2. I'm going NUTS here waiting and wondering. He can't swallow....can't stand up!! I'm sooo fearful I'm going to lose my best friend. :'( :'( Just wanted to ask ALL of you to send ALL the healing vibes you can spare. Tears are flowing again....but these are tears of pure sadness and sorrow. I'll keep you all posted. And BTW...he's gay AND Black. He's always joked and said..."All I need now is to be Catholic...." And we'd LAUGH ssoooooooo hard!! <I'm catholic...btw> He was soooo weak when I saw him today....it's breaking my heart!! :'( But he DID muster up enough strength to kiss my fingertips when I got there!!! I LOVE THIS MAN!!
Much Love to all....Nancy <I NEED your hugs>
Lynne:
Hey, there, Nancy - we're here to be supportive of each other - no more nonsense about being a 'downer'. I'm so very sorry to hear about your very good friend's illness. I'll definitely hold good thoughts for him in my heart. Keep us posted as you get test results and learn more. I'm sure it's a great comfort to him that you're able to be there with him. Hang in there, and know we love you both.
-Lynne
iristarr:
Hey Nancy, you can be sure you've got my love and prayers for healing going out through you to your dear friend. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE coming through . . . . :-* :-* :-* :-*
BBMGrandma:
Thanks SO very much....I can FEEL those vibes coming through. I didn't go to the hospital today. I was SOO wiped out from yesterday. But I'm keeping in touch with the hospital. They moved him today from the ER...to intensive care. Still no definitive diagnosis...!!! He's got SO much 'stuff' goin on in his body....I'm sure it's hard to poinpoint the most crucial of his ailments. He's weaker today than he was yesterday...and that makes me fearful. But I'm keeping positive thoughts for my pal. I HAVE to....!!
I'll drive to SF again tomorrow and start picking the brains of his attending Doctors. I'm 'good' in hospitals. I've spent SO much time over the years with my mother...hospitalized SOO many times...luckily I know how to 'work em'
I wish I had some good news to convey to ya'll.....but right now...it's SOO very touch and go!! All I DO KNOW....is that I'm heartsick and so afraid of losing my BESTEST PAL!!!
Two or three times a week we'd get on the phone...and talk for hours about everything from soup to nuts. He always got me up to date on 'things'....mainly world politics. He's an extremely educated guy. He was a code interpreter in the Air Force....speaks 7 languages....both his mom and dad were Professors in education. He taught court reporting for many years. I was always SO glad that he had come into my life. Thirty Seven years of pure....loving...friendship. I guess I have to take Ennis' advice..."If ya can't fix it.....you just gotta stand it!!" I've always been able to fix stuff....I guess this time I can't. :'( Just hafta ride it...!!
Talk soon my friends....MUCH LOVE....Nancy
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