I too, must have known that BBM was gonna be a movie that I would never forget. There are lots of movies I see the trailers for and think, "Oh I must go and see that", but never do, but with BBM I watched the local papers every day waiitng for the movie to come to my town, and was there on the first day it screened.
I had never read the book, nor read anything on the net about it, just a couple of film reviews in the paper, so I was not familiar with the story, all I knew was that it was a "love story between two cowboys".
I actually thought the "cowboys" were gonna be cowboys from the old wild west, so my first surprise in the movie was that it was set in 1963.
As the movie started, then progressed I kept thinking "when are they gonna fall in love, its gotta happen soon", so the beginning of the movie at that first viewing seemed a bit slow and drawn out as it got to the time when Ennis and Jack committed to what was happening to them both.
Never in my wildest thoughts did I think the initial "love scene" be what it was. I was a little embarrassed, and wondered if it was necessary to show so much detail, and my comments afterwards were that "the movie was fantastic, but they probably could have left out the sexual love scene, maybe just flap the tent or something a little bit more discreet".
Even at my second viewing a few days later, and accompanied by someone different to who I saw it the first time, I was still a little uneasy when I knew it was coming up, and wondered how my friend would react to it.
By the third viewing, another week later, the uneasiness had gone, and I was more relaxed about it, even looked forward to when it was coming up, and probably watched it more closely than I had previously, and finally found it pleasant, even exciting to a point.
More and more viewings only extended the excitement of the scene, more understanding of it, feeling the pure animalistic lust that the boys were feeling, and the realization of the importance of it to the rest of the movie. Without it, maybe we would all be stll wondering how and if it happened.
Just to enlighten you as to what an initiation it was for me, at the time I was 54 yrs old, and that was the first time ever, that I had ever seen a gay sexual act. I had never even seeen it in a still picture, let alone in a movie. Of course I knew that that was the way gay men made love, but I had never seen a visual of it.
Now it damwell turns me on a little, but not as much as TS2, but thats just the female hormones, more receptive to the romantic and gentle side of love making.
