1. What do you consider your most lasting benefit from BBM? Now that
some time has elapsed, and you can reflect more unemotionally?
It is impossible for me to reflect upon BBM unemotionally. I can't see this changing any time soon.
As for the lasting benefit of BBM, for me personally it is probably the realisation of the arbitrary power and serendipitous nature that fate plays in our lives. I mean, when Jack and Ennis took those summer jobs in 1963, they probably thought they were at their lowest ebb. Little did they suspect what fate had in store for them. And I've noticed this in my own life. It's often when one has hit rock bottom that the (proverbial) new window opens!
2. How many Brokies have you met in person over the last year and a half.?
None.
3. Do you now go on trips to meet up with friends from BBM? Or do you
wish to do so?
I originally saw BBM with my ex and we subsequently saw it several times together. We still discuss it often.
4. Do you still identify with the same character in the movie that you did
at first? Or have your thoughts changed?
My initial response has not changed. I am still drawn to Ennis romantically. He is the kinda guy I've always fallen for. And I still relate to Jack because I can see so much of myself in him. From the very beginning, I have loved Jack and Ennis unconditionally. My only wish is for them to find happiness in each other's arms. As I know, realistically, that this can never be, I have found BetterMost fanfic very therapeutic in assisting me to come to terms with their reality and also with what might have been for them.
5. Have you watched the movie again in the last two months.?
Yes.
6. Do you have any plans to see it soon? Within the next two months.?
Yes.
7. Have you made any purchases that have to do with the movie,
ie...memorabilia, or special things? Clothing, jewelry, other books, movie
stuff.?
Yes. I own the books "Close Range" and "Brokeback Mountain Story to Screenplay," the DVD, the CD, the full size movie poster and several laminated prints of my favourite scenes from the movie; for example, here on my desk, I'm looking at a photo of the dozy embrace and Ennis on horseback. In my living room is a different pic of the dozy embrace. My screensaver at home is the one from the official BBM website and my screensaver at work is a compilation of non-BBM-specific Alberta and Wyoming scenes. As a direct extension of BBM, I have purchased everything ever published by Annie Proulx. I also have a collection of newspaper and magazine articles dealing with BBM. And of course I am a member of BetterMost.
8. What is the one most important truth you think you have gleaned from
your Brokie experience?
See my response to question 1, above, regarding fate.
9. Do you feel that in any way your time here has been a waste..? Or
a productive road that you have gotten a lot of enjoyment and learned
a great deal from..?
Most definitely the latter. My life has been enriched beyond measure by BBM and through my association with BetterMost.
10. Do you think you will still be a brokie in a year from now.? If not why
not?
I love Jack and Ennis unconditionally. They are more real to me that Jake and Heath. And if that sounds delusional, so be it! They live in my heart. I will never desert them.