Something you don't usually get from me: a little bit of angst.
Riverton, Wyoming
April, 1975
Ennis shoved the flowers at Alma, green tissue paper falling off. “Here, I got ya somethin’,” he said, his voice barely a grunt.
She looked at the ten daffodils, cinched with a green rubber band. “What’s this for?”
“I thought they were pretty, thought ya might like them.”
“Ya never buy me flowers, Ennis, what were ya thinkin’?”
“They were sellin’ em at the grocery store…a fundraiser for somethin’. Girl Scouts, I think.”
Alma took a glass from the cupboard and filled it with water, then turned to Ennis. “We can barely afford to put food on the table and you go throwin’ money away on daffodils. What’re ya thinkin’, Ennis?”
“Oh fuck it, I was just tryin’ ta do somethin’ nice,” he said, storming out the door, lighting a cigarette as the screen slammed behind him.
Fuck, just somethin’ nice for you, Alma, he thought, and then paused. No, not Alma. It’s you, Jack. The flowers reminded me a you, and the mountain, and the spring, and the yellow columbine growin’ up around the rocks and scatterin’ down the hillside…
He clattered down the stairs and threw himself into his truck, then stopped, head dropping forward on the steering wheel. “Why the fuck can’t I do anythin’ right…for anybody?” he swore to himself.
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