Will be looking forward to read that story you started! Keep on it. A professional writer struggles and keep on going his batteries, ha ha!! I think... it is even like creating as I do a painting: you try and try, and at times succeed!!
I spent a good amount of time on it after i wrote my MSG to you, I was writing the reunion scene which was sad/good to write. Its so interesting, I have this list of characteristics so i can into there lives and understand my characters, In a way i spend a large amount of time acting like them. So that part in many ways is hard. Its gets pretty emotional to causes the pain i have to. I get hurt at the same time.
Melb may I say, brokeplex's present buddy is D.L. and maybe you do not know that Chris was his former one but he has past away. The stories of both of his buddies are very interesting and helped me!! Maybe you would be interested in those too??This confuses me, i dont know what you mean?
So far, you give clues to better life as gay youth in your story?Yes, they do make different decisions in life that i would have made. That's because they are fictional characters and have nothing to do with my life.
Better - No, I dont think there story is better. Its heartbreaking, I'm beginning to believe there is no such thing as a happy gay ending. Most of the stories i hear about are devastating. People who have made mistakes, been used or been killed.
So i'm not going to make my story happy, I'd be lying if that's what i wrote/felt. I want this story to come from my heart. So it needs to be full of Melancholy and delirium. But have such great moments of Love.
Also, Society needs to change, Its not happening yet, People are still prejudice. Some countries still kill homosexuals. Some countries put them away forever. Almost every continent have a Gay related hate crime every hour, I think. Some one is called a "Faggot" in a school yard every minute school is on. Nothing is changing.
Annie Proulx wrote a story about "The destructive effects of rural homophobia" One year later. 30 minutes from her house. Matthew Shepard was brutally tortured, left on a french to die, Like he was a warning of what happens to his kind in Wyoming. He died because to "Boys" who weren't on drugs, Seduced him to rob him, which they only got twenty dollers.
This is what happens to our kind, i learnt that a 10. I was reminded of that a 17. Society needs to learn and change. So they need to be continuily remind of "The destructive effects of rural homophobia" But they need to learn also this stems from parents and there ideals. The nonacceptance for change. The ignorance, There fear.
Happiness is something me and my characters will find in societies change of there conformities. What i fear is that will be never.....
This Mattew Sheperd,
