Its the realization that hits you at different times, isn't it?
I have just been to the supermarket, and walking through the car park, out of all the number plates I focused on was the one with the letters HEAI passed 50 cars and only focussed on that one number plate.......and as I looked at it, I thought...."he's gone".
I agree,I see a truck and it hits again.or someone in a cowboy hat,silly I know.It realy is like a soccer punch to the guts.All this for someone I did not know personally,but who impacted my life in such an all pervasive way via BBM.
My comfort is that someone who I did not know and who obviously did not know me,has through BBM made me examine some places in my head,which I should have done many years ago.
I am not a big religious person,but I truly hope somewhere,he knows how much good he has done,and is really at peace.
