jUdE, I am so, so sorry.
I had a cat, an abyssinian named Oz (for Ozymandias, of course!) who died 8 years ago at the age of 15. I was devastated, and it took me a long time to get over his death. Grief for a beloved companion is very hard, and I feel for you. Words are small things, but sometimes it's all we have to give. Be well--Brokie will comfort you, I know it.
xxxx
John