Thank you everyone for your support! I wasn't going to post, but I think I owe you..
The second kitten was put to sleep an hour ago.. It was much much better on Saturday morning, when it came back from a night at the vet (with baxter etc). But in the evening it got worse and yesterday and especially this night was cruel.. I spare you the details but at 4:45am I called a vet urgency and that vet gave him about 8 injections...... AWEFUL!!! It had 40°C temperature
When I came home the kitten was bleeding from one of the injection points.. It was without strength whatsoever but always went (tried to..) to drink some water (I fed it water through a syringe).. At 8:30am I called my vet, who I knew was out of town, but her mother called back and said I could bring the kitten and her daughter would be on the way back to Brussels.. I left the kitten at 10am and at 11am the vet called me and said that she had put it to sleep. It was the best thing to do.. but I'm completely distraught by the fact that on its last day and half it went through HELL! What a way to go....
A friend of mine said now it would join its brother Sama' (sky). So I decided to posthumely baptize it Sahaba (cloud).
The mother rejected and ignored Sahaba. Very very cruel to watch.. I was angry at Brokie! The third brother seems to be in surplus of energy!! It's nice to see, but it hurts a lot too. Out of the three, he is the one I was going to give away for sure. He was very distant at the beginning, whereas Sama' and Sahaba where much more 'cuddly'... But that changed and he wants my attention a lot. I think mother and son noticed something was wrong..
I'll call the third kitten 'Sayif' (summer). So it's Sama', Sahaba and Sayif. I think that goes together well.
Sorry about the bad news. I can't help it, but I'm angry at myself, at that stupid emergency-vet and at that lethal virus that creaped into my life and that of the kittens in the last 3 weeks. I can't do with more! I'm wreck and I feel stupid. Two colleagues asked about the cats and I just said 'no cat-talk' and sent them away! My sister called me on my mobile, I ignored her call. I just can't right now.
Sorry again.
~ j U d E