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Turning a corner
BBMGrandma:
--- Quote from: lynne_0315 on March 04, 2006, 01:11:29 pm --- What do you think the black whiskers represent to you? (BTW...if I'm being too nosy, no answer required...no harm/no foul) I'm just curious as to how you interpreted it. In my own experience, I thought that the sense of being hugged closely, the swaddling shirts, etc. were the Jack/Ennis components of myself loving me or maybe giving me permission to love and accept myself or something.
"The scales are finally balancing...and in MY favor I should add." Did you notice that there is a kitchen scale in the scene at Jack's parents house?
"I feel that questioning is a part of living. We should never give that up....it's what keeps us ticking...don't you think?"
I completely agree...it is the process of living and looking for the answers that is important.
I have never felt nauseous before going to the theater, more guilty anticipation and excitement to see what this next time will bring. However, I have emerged with stomach in knots in the style of Ennis guts-twisting upon leaving Jack for the first time.
Lynne
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Dear Lynne....I'm never held back about sharing experiences with all of you here. This is my SAFE place...here with y'all <BBM drawl...LOL> I had the feeling of being freed...Lynne. As though all the ugly things in my life were being plucked out...and Ennis' reassurance as he held me from behind....was my rock...my strength...my golden rod!! <no pun intended... ;)> Ennis seemed to be my connection to life itself. Jack, on the other side, felt like all the lovers I have ever had and screwed up. His smiling at me was like a gate being opened to freedom from ALL the internal turmoil that I've carried with me all these years. Sitting in the warm dirt on that road....felt SO warm and loving. When Jack caressed my cheek...<after it was clear of all that ugliness> and smiled at me...it was like sunshine pouring over me. Brightness...love....safety. When Ennis helped me up onto my feet...it was freedom to go and be ME!! It seemed like my first taste of PURE LOVE and freedom. When Ennis said..."Go on now purty girl...go on your way now" I KNEW that I was free to love myself!! I forgave myself for all the guilt I've felt over the years....as though EVERY broken relationship was my fault. Whew...what a totally freeing feeling that was/is/will be!! AT LAST!! Thank you Heath and Jake....for being brave and wise enough to bring this to us!! bouquets!! They are ALL winners in MY BOOK!!! ;D
psssst...No I didn't notice the scales in that kitchen!! Hmmmm....irony?
BBMGrandma:
--- Quote from: karentx on March 04, 2006, 11:10:49 am ---I finally found everyone !!!
. I thought I was losing my mind. These forums have been such a blessing for me.
I'm not alone out here. I think it has hit us "mature" women have probably been more affected
because of the times we grew up in.
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YAYYYY....welcome Karen!! and yes....I think we ALL thought we were losing our minds. I SURE DID!!! I kept saying to myself...OK Nance...you've finally gone over the edge. WHEW....thank goodness I found ALL of you. Thank goodness we found EACH other...!!!
--- Quote from: karentx on March 04, 2006, 11:10:49 am ---. This movie makes me wonder if I was right. I don't know.
They has to be another Jack out there looking for someone like me????????
Maybe not, but I've come to terms with things now. Sort of !!!!
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Karen....for your own well being....I'll wager that you ARE right. Now it's time to go take a peek....be brave...and find that Jack out there!! Now that you've digested and thought about your 'Ennis' style....!!! I've always been an Ennis too....whew...now I'm gonna combine Ennis and Jack...and try and put myself in a better place.
BIG HUG....Nancy
BBMGrandma:
--- Quote from: iristarr on March 04, 2006, 06:38:34 pm ---
And today I am cleaning up my place in preparation for a small Academy Awards party I'm having tomorrow (first time I've ever done that). Listening to the CD, (skipping over the Linda Ronstadt), and just now, as I write, Brokeback Radio is playing the beautiful opening music to the film. What a gift! I'm climbing up to heaven. May your journey be filled with joy. Iris.
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WOW....Iris!!! You rascal!! You mean you're gonna CLEAN your house? WHEW!! I'm still waiting for the inspiration to hit me. ;) HECK...it's still raining...no need to mop my floor yet...is there? LOL <two giant PUPS running in and out...and four kitty kats> ;D
HOORAY for you that you're having a little 'get together' with your pals. Now remember....NO arsenic in the punch for those who may comment negatively about our 'boys' ::)
Iris....what do you think of MY interpretation of my dream? Anything close to what your thoughts are? I'd love to hear your 'take'.
LUCK to OUR MOVIE TONIGHT!!!
Nancy
BBMGrandma:
--- Quote from: donnaread on March 04, 2006, 11:25:57 am ---Hi Nancy,
Sorry I haven't logged in for awhile. I have been reading all the reviews of BBM on Amazon...I'm in the 300s now, lol. Some of those people make me so mad, but I'm happy to say that the majority of the reviews are very, very positive, by both homosexual AND straight people. I will be more conscientious about logging in from now on. Thanks for this forum, I really needed it. Wish I had the courage to go and talk to a therapist about it, lol! Donna
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HOOORAY....you're back Donna!! ::::clapping my hands:::: thought we lost ya somewhere!! I, for one, can't stay in Amazon too long. I get NUTS reading the derogatory remarks from some people. I take it personally....as though they were talking about my brothers!!! I wanna SLAP EM!!!
Hopefully.....if ya hang in here with us....Donna....you'll figure out a lot of 'stuff'....huh?
HUgssssssss.....Nancy
karentx:
Nancy, as you and I have said in emails , this movie opened up so much in us that was pretty
scary. Still don't understand some of it, but I believe that if we all can just talk about it
together, we can all come to an understanding of our fear's, heartaches's and regrets,
and hopefully figure out what we can do for ourselves. Be a support for one another.
I have to believe there is something good to come into all of our lives for having seen
this movie. An true understanding of ourselves.
I would like to know where each of us lives. I live in Austin, Texas. I know Nancy lives
in Northern California.
Let's get to know one another, and be a sounding board for each other !
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