You sound so much like me, Shasta, with the dust and the animals and the age (I'm in my early 50's). Did you ever think you'd get to be the age you are? I didn't. I often wonder how I got to be the age I am so quickly! When you said you look in the mirror and expect to see a girl, and you see a 50+ lady, I feel exactly the same way. I don't feel any different than when I was in my 20's & 30's; maybe a little wiser and more mature, but to me, I'll think we'll alwaybe be girls!!!