The Perfect Prayer works again....
Well It's 1 AM right now... Can't sleep. Before I went to bed tonight, though, I prayed the modified perfect prayer, which I had accidentally done so long ago and experienced near immediate results.
The Modified Perfect Prayer.
Engineer my circumstances, Lord, according to your will.
Engineer my circumstances, Lord, according to your will.
Engineer my circumstances, Lord, according to your will, but please... do it quickly.
For the next four hours I tossed and turned in bed with one clear thought running through my head. I need to quit my job. It has become a major source of unhappiness in my life, draining soul, energy, and time away from me. Granted, it has provided some income; but like a friend of mine said, its easy enough (usually) to find income anywhere, even if it is only for eight weeks at a time. In any case, money is not the most important thing in the world, and I don't see any reason why I should continue to sacrifice everything else about myself in order to pay bills and remain in a situation where I am becoming increasingly unhappy. I was happier before there, but over the years, either my mind or the location has changed, and it no longer is a source of happiness, interest, or intrigue, but instead just the opposite.
I have no idea what I am going to be doing, because I don't really have the money right now to go into what I really want to do.... but I know I won't be there anymore, in a short period, and I will once again experience the happy freedom and noble uncertainty of unemployment. Strangely enough, I have no doubt in my mind that this itching or calling if you will resulted from that prayer, and now I am making the changes necessary to make certain that it comes to fruition.
But I think I have learned to let go of my circumstances, over the years, even if I didn't know precisely that's what I was doing, and not try to cling to them because that is the way they have always been done. I have always been one in favor of self-improvement, through whatever means... usually through the adventures of life, and our interactions with other persons, and embracing adventure means letting go of the safe and familiar. Letting Go and Letting God has helped me in other occasions as well, so why not here? And knowing the way this works now, since it has happened twice now, leaves me to believe that my life has a plan of some sort, in the works, even if I'm not entirely certain what it is.
Love and light,
Daniel.