O dear God. How can this be true....? My dear boy. I love you so much, and
always have, since the first time we talked. You were so lost and alone in that
time. Not knowing what to do with your life. You made your choices, and you
made a new and wonderful choice for yourself. You met a man that
loved and appreciated you. The way that you deserved. You had a great relationship
with your beautiful Bizzy. Your new family fit together so perfectly. I just am so
so sorry for all of them now. They had the chance to find you, and realize what a
wonderful person you were. What a great heart you had, and how sweet and loving
you were, all the way down inside. I am happy that you found Gene and his boys
too. It is just seemingly so unfair, that just to have found you, and now to have to
go through this. We are all in such shock. I can not really fathom it is real yet. I
just guess i'll have to take it in in stages. Please God let this too pass. Mama