My heart goes out to these guys. 19 years have gone by, each has gone through personal hells and triumphs, and they've just been traveling in almost a full circle. It's SNIT, 19 years later. Jack is lying there, wanting Ennis to accept what he's already given to him, and wanting Ennis to give what Jack already knows he wants, but unsure if Ennis can really accept what's offered or even really make his own offer. Ennis is by the fire, staring at the flames which consumed him, wanting to accept what he knows Jack has already given to him but unsure whether he can, and wanting to give the same to Jack in return but unsure whether Jack will accept when he offers, and still somewhat ashamed for thinking that way and being who he is. Damn! Get into that tent!
Ennis, it's time so stop dancin' in the dark with Jack. Time to lead him by the hand to the dance floor, and dance with him and even kiss him under the lights, and stand with him in front of everyone while the fireworks go off overhead and all around. You'll find out those who are your real friends and family. And if some of the good ol' boys react harshly, it will be decision time for John, too. Will he remain alone surrounded by everyone, or also step under the lights?
And talk to each other, really talk, tell each other what you saw, how you feel, and make that offer and ask whether the other will accept it. Then, accept it and hand it back without reservation.
Thanks to Danny for being Ennis' sponsor, not just at AA but also in his journey to acceptance of himself. In doing so, Danny has also accepted what's on the shelves inside his own self, and is able to sort through his life and move on.
You have brought us rich, complex characters who wrestle with problems of real life. That's why I look forward to each chapter, and do not look forward to reading "The End". Thanks.