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Turning a corner
BBMGrandma:
--- Quote from: iristarr on March 01, 2006, 03:00:44 pm ---I've also been talking with my therapist about the BBM-effect for a few weeks now. That's ALL we talk about
WOW.....Iris....seems perhaps you and I have the same therapist? BTW....I had been going to my therapist for quite a while BBBM <Before Brokeback Mountain> and believe it or not...this story has opened a whole bunch of 'doors' into my heart and soul that we had been trying to break through for a long long time. Now we discuss these feelings and emotions and are able to relate them to a whole bunch of things that I've been keeping inside.
--- Quote from: iristarr on March 01, 2006, 03:00:44 pm --- Deep, deep anguish, many many tears. And one point I felt like I was crying for all the pain in the world. When I found myself weeping in the very beginning when Jake and Ennis begin up the mountain with the sheep, knowing they are ascending into paradise and all the pain that awaits them in their lives, . . . . I'm crying as I try to write this.
BINGO....I'm there with you. So symbolic...their trek up that mountain. I felt such JOY as I watched them moving slowly up their mountain....not KNOWING the first time I saw it....that it was leading them to SUCH love and SUCH DOOM!! The second time I saw it was when the symbolism became so apparent. I find myself crying...now....at some of the most inappropriate moments during the movie...KNOWING what is about to happen. And yet I'm transfixed....waiting to experience the soft tender love between these two people.
My emotions are still so very tender and raw. Like an open wound into which I KEEP ON rubbing salt. I find myself WANTING to relive these feelings....over and over again. I'm sure these unbelievable gut wrenching emotions will subside....at least a little. But I KNOW....and I'm being repititious when I say this....this story....this movie...these 'boys' will sit forever in my heart.
Nancy
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BBMGrandma:
OH dear....I haven't figured out yet how to use the "QUOTE" thingee on here. Sorry...Iris...you and I are kinda jumbled up. :-[ Hopefully all of you will figure out WHO said what...LOL Besides....I can't find a better place to be jumbled up....NOR any better people!!
Nancy <BBMGrandma>
BBMGrandma:
--- Quote ---Feel free to send me a bill for the counsleing services you all have provided me. ;)
Thanks,
J.
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Let's see if I did this quote thing correctly...this time!!! WOW....I think I did it!! Anyway.....J...I hope you find answers to your questions about this feeling that we're all experiencing. I'm soo very grateful to be in the company of all of you....and I'm learning SO very much by being here. Hopefully you'll feel LOVE and comfort here J....and not just harsh realities.
And BTW...it's "on the house" ;)
Nancy
BBMGrandma:
--- Quote from: lynne_0315 on March 02, 2006, 05:28:10 pm ---And I thought that finding the others on this board meant I didn't need therapy :-)
. I went to sleep with the soundtrack playing and awoke with such an overwhelming sense of well-being. My first waking thought was that I was being held, wrapped securely in those shirts. Obsessed? If so, I hope it never passes.
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Ooooooo LYNNE....what an absolutely wonderful scenario. I closed my eyes after I read your post...and envisioned what you were experiencing. If I share this dream I had the other night....will I sound crazy? Well....I'll tell you anyway...!!
I never liked the look of Jack...in his moustache. It covered up the beautiful curve of his lips. In my dream I had a HUGE patch of black hairs on my cheek. About as big around as a quarter. I didn't seem to mind it and went about my business as usual. I was walking down a country road and JACK and ENNIS appeared in front of me. Jack came right up to me and said....<laughingly> "OMG...there it is Ennis...." With that....both of them put their arms around me....sat me down on the dusty road...and began to pluck each hair out...one by one. Ennis was sitting behind me....with his arms around me...and JACK was plucking away...grinning and showing his dimples. Ennis kept saying...."don't worry....it won't hurt...." Over and over again. When Jack was through...he kissed my cheek soooooooo gently. They both helped me up...smiled at me...Ennis kissed my nose and said..."There you go purty girl....go on your way now..." And I woke up!!!
GOD...it was soooo real. I woke up with such a feeling of pure contentment and happiness. As though these two were sent to let me know things were alright between the two of them.
Oh dear....see? Now I'M starting to cry again. Be back in a few....<I need Kleenex>
Nancy
iristarr:
Holy smoke, Nancy -- you were visited by the angels in your dream! I did have a Jack-like figure who spoke to me in a dream (I wrote about it somewhere in these pages), but he didn't pluck out my dark whiskers! Very interesting! I just came back from my dream group this evening, and am going to give your dream some heavy thought. Have you ever done any dream work with a group? It's been a fruitful addition to my life these last eight months. Way to go, BBMgrandma, bring em all down. They seem to be our dream-guides, don't you think? :-*
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