This is very strange. And yet, not. Heath has been appearing in my dreams pretty much every night for the last two weeks. Not generally in any macabre way, but as if he is someone I know who is still very much alive. He is kind of a brother figure in the dreams. I've never dreamt of him in all my Brokeback/Ennis loving days. Ennis and Jack have appeared before, but never Heath or Jake.
This isn't strange, really, because my Dad is dying. He is currently under hospice care in his home and his time is running very short. I went up to NC to spend time with him and my stepmom and to say goodbye last week. He is just a shell, now, of the man he used to be, thanks to the evil bitch that is glioblastoma (grade 4 brain cancer) and her evil sister, Temador (chemo"therapy").
Shortly after my Mom died many years ago, I had dreams of people I had greatly admired but never known personally who had passed before her. I think it's the mind's way of dealing with the death of someone very close - the death of someone who was admired - loved, even - but distant - is easier.
In this case, though, I awake comforted, feeling at least for a little bit that Heath is still with us.
