Hi there, Phillip,
Great site you have here! Am anxious to introduce myself to the members. Here is a short scan of my experience with BBM: took me until January 3rd, this year to hype up the courage to buy the movie in DVD format; viewing it just floored me with gut-wrenching tears. Brought back sweet and lump-throat memories of my one-month skiing on Marmot Basin in Jasper, Alberta, where I met Chuck from Valemont, BC, 10 years ago. The scene between Ennis and Jack leaving each other at the beginning just tears me apart as it did after our skiing vacation ended. I'm a gay man. Chuck, I remember, never brought up the subject. I still, today, don't know. What happened between the two of us just happened. He left one day B4 I did. We did not ski that day; just stayed in bed talking, cuddling. I could not stay in Jasper another day; the lonesomeness was more than I could take. Took the next plane out from Edmonton to Montreal (talk about an eternity!!). There were many times I wondered if it would be a good idea to try to locate him as I never got any news from him. Then entertained the notion that he's married and it would not be a good idea. Perhaps a disappointing answer I could not accept (being the introverted-sensitive person that I am). I consider myself to be the Ennis type - introverted and not much of a talker. I enjoy my own company and keep myself physically fit with racket sports although I once messed up my right hip crashing into the squash court wall which obliged me to convalesce for two months but back into it now full swing. I've had many occasions to get into a relationship but find honest and sincere relationships impossible. During the past few days I have been viewing, in the privacy of my apartment, BBM with all the lights switched off. Pent-up emotions quickly surge up. I just wish I knew how to "quit" them. It's too heart-breaking for me. Too many sweet memories coming back haunting me. Difficult times to get to sleep. I've got to go now as I feel stinging tears coming through. I'm not one who "gets over ii."
Warmest and sincerest affection for giving me a chance to briefly summarize my current make-up.
Pierre