All the writing on this site can be for more than fun and chat. It's become like journaling for me, see, I read back over what others wrote, and what I wrote too and realized how revealing our entries are. What recently is helping me, in my actual life, is to see what I wrote a while back and look at where I am now. I wrote that I was like Jack mostly, but living in an "Ennis Del Mar Like Land"... ( several entries ago).... well, I feel I am almost turning into Ennis, not like going mad, but I have become much more isolated and remote in the last year because of where I live. I know it's not good, but at least I see that now, clearly. And I will have to make changes. In fact it could be major changes.
I'm still like Jack, but I don't want the gentle, sensitive side of me to die like Jack because then all I'd have would be Ennis qualities, and the balance of the two would be missing. I say all this, knowing I'm much more and largely different from the two characters, but it's a good exercise to focus on them and see parts of one's self more clearly for doing so. I guess this entry will be a bit cerebral, even weird, perhaps, for some, but hey, I understand it perfectly! LOL
(My sense of humor is all mine!) RR