I decided to watch my BBM DVD today. I cried more than I've ever cried when I've watched it (in theaters, at home, or with friends). I found myself crying most when I watched the intimate scenes of Ennis and Jack. The tears really started flowing when they headed up BBM. I expected to be really sad when I saw campsite number 2, because of Mouk's beautiful floral memorial i the snow - but I forgot about that scene of Ennis waking up to find his tent in the snow and that really got to me.
It's like fiction and reality have been combined into one movie. All of a sudden there seem to be so many more significant parts of the movie with additional meanings. Plus after having been to many of the filming locations this summer during the Alberta Pilgrimage, it all seems so much more real and I feel much more a part of it.
My partner, David, got home just as I was watching the credits, although we didn't see each other until after I finished watching it. He said my voice sounded a bit strange and I told him what I had been doing. I was grateful to him since he asked about my experience and we had a wonderful talk about the movie and Heath. Although not really a Brokie, David said he's thought about Heath a lot these past few days.
It is hard to imagine how sad it will be to watch BBM with other Brokies next summer in LA.
I will end my rambling here. Somehow words do not seem to be adequate.
Thank you all for your love and support during this time of such sadness.
Pete