Hi, I'm Danny.
I’m pretty new here, though I have been reading in the Forum for a while now. I am from Germany and English is not my native language. So please excuse any mistakes.
I know BBM since it came out in Germany in 2006. When I first saw this movie, it affected me in a way I hadn’t expected. I was devastated, couldn’t breathe, was lost in thoughts and couldn't stop crying and thinking about the story for a long while.
In my family there were some parallels with the story shown in the movie, and so I reacted also to a special situation in my real life some years before ( I lost a beloved relative).
I went to the cinema for 4 or 5 times and decided that this was the best movie I ever saw. Sort of “my movie”. I also read the short story some months later and was deeply moved.
The next 10 years were very busy. I seldom thought about BBM for a long time (but couldn't get it out of my mind).
Then the BlueRay Disc found me in March (it was a present from a friend whom I had told that I love films directed by Ang Lee and that I had finally bought a BlueRay Player … ). At first I was reluctant to watch the movie one more time (and started watching the movies in my Ang Lee present box with "The Ice Storm") , because I remembered my reactions in 2006, but then I couldn’t not watch it. And from the start the “Brokeback feeling” was back. Better and worse than in 2006.
I then began to analyse why this movie is killing me every time. And I found out that it has much to do not only with the life of the person I lost but with my own life and the decisions I took (or did not).
I think I’m past the stage to analyse the scenes or to talk about “what if”, but I’m happy to having found this forum. It's amazing that there are still people out there who feel about the movie the same way that I do.
It’s also interesting that there are so many little details and almost hidden words in this movie that I didn’t recognize before reading about them and watching the scene closely.
So here I am.
