It seems strange to have be going through this process with someone I never met. How can you miss someone you never spoke with or laid eyes on?? With your father it makes sense (my sympathies, BTW), but with Heath? Well, it just is, I guess.
Doesn't make fully sense to me either. Sometimes I'm also a bit surprised by my own reaction. But then, two years have gone by and I still haven't fully figured why Brokeback Mountain has such an effect on me. *shrugs* Some things just are, like you said.
And of course it's very different than it was with my father, but the coping mechanism is the same, only on a different level.