Same here Mikaela. I feel completely wiped out. I can't even talk about the warehouse scene atm. It's too much. I cant even begin to understand what Jack went through.
I just hurt so much for all their pain and guilt and confusion and harsh words and for what will happen to them now.
Their lovemaking was incredibly beautiful. I cant believe how sad and loving it was. It made me cry. Their tears just did me in.
These were a few of my favourite lines:
“Jack, I—it’s more than this for me,” Ennis said urgently, his lips almost touching Jack’s, desperate for Jack to hear beyond his words. He clutched Jack’s hip tightly, fingers sinking into his skin. “It’s more than just this.”
Jack stopped moving, pulling Ennis’s hand up to his mouth to kiss his knuckles, run his tongue along Ennis’s palm. “I know,” he whispered. The tears that Jack had been fighting back all morning were overflowing now, running down the sides of his face to form uneven pools on the dingy white sheets.
“Aaah, god, Jack,” Ennis exhaled, catching Jack’s tears in his hand. They made love silently except for their low moans, the sounds of their bodies joining together. Ennis thrust steady and strong, wanting to make it good for Jack, wanting him to feel loved. Jack came quietly, a deep trembling sigh, spilling over into Ennis’s hand. Ennis wasn’t far behind, his own tears wetting Jack’s collarbone as he fell forward, his body shaking against Jack’s warm skin.
Oh Amy ~ you are just so so amazing. It blows me away.